Being alone is a scary thing. The thought of being alone forever is even scarier. I had a conversation about whether it would be better to never fall in love than to lose someone that you loved. My friend said she would rather never had loved because why bother even knowing that you could feel that good when you're just going to lose them and lose that feeling, potentially forever. I honestly can't believe that she felt this way just because never feeling love is possibly the worst thing that could happen to someone. I would rather have a moment of pure happiness rather than never actually knowing how that feels. It is worth the lose. After debating all of this we continued about how scary it is to think that we may never find who we are supposed to fall in love with. Not the cliched "soul mate" but just someone that meets expectations and is someone that we deserve, someone more than average. What if we never find that someone? Maybe it's vain to think that we deserve someone who is more than average, but is it really so wrong? I think I deserve someone interesting and funny and thoughtful and everything, someone who I don't have to settle for. The thought of settling is almost as scary as being alone because I want someone who I REALLY want, not someone whose alright that i chose because I'm scared of being alone. It makes me want to rush and find him tomorrow, so I know that I don't have to worry anymore. No one wants to be that cat lady. What if that becomes me? Seriously...what if the choice ends up being between being alone and settling for someone who is alright? I don't care how selfish that may sound, because in the back of everybody's head are the same thoughts. No one wants to settle. Everyone has these extraordinary ideas of what love should be and no one wants to give them up. So, I guess I'll wait...and risk being alone for the rest of my life? Hopefully not though.